3 Songs... Eeny, Meeny, Miney, Mo...

These are the songs I was considering for my audition.  The links provided are to covers of the song done by me.

My Heart Can't Tell You No by Sara Evans is an amazing song.  I heard it the other day, and just had to add it to my list of potentials.

Papa Can You Hear Me, by Barbra Streisand, has been one of my favorites for pretty much two decades.  Barbra sings it AMAZINGLY, and I try to do it justice, even when just singing for my own entertainment <3

Ultimately, though, I ended up going with Close Enough to Touch by Kenneth Cope.  I can't fully explain it, but it just felt like the right choice for the moment ^.^

When Audition and Passion Collide

Today I had an audition.  It’s the first audition I’ve had in years, and wow was I excited!  The musical I was trying out for has been one of my favorites for years, and scoring the part would be HUGELY exciting…

...but I’m not worried about that.  

To be honest, of course I would love to get the part.  I would have so much fun, and to be honest I believe I would do REALLY well.  It’s so much more than that, though….

You see, I love to sing.  It is, without a doubt, one of my greatest passions.  I feel so connected with… more when I sing.  I don’t really know how to describe it, but when I lose myself - truly lose myself - to the music, I just…. Am.  I am the music, and the music is me.  And it is such a beautiful experience.

That’s what I felt today on stage for that audition.  I chose a song that is near and dear to my heart, one I felt was right for that moment, and I just… I got lost in it.  It took a moment at first, I won’t lie (nerves, lol), but when I finally let go and just was…. Oh boy was I!

I was marvelous!  I heard myself, but more than that, I felt myself.  I felt the crescendos, the decrescendos, the suspense of the music as though I was living it.  I felt the audience - a handful of men and women, my husband, and our baby - enjoying what I had worked so hard to prepare for them.  I felt… amazing.

And that is what it’s about for me - following my passions, losing myself in them, and letting go enough to enjoy what I’m doing.  And oh, I did…

And it paid off!!  Whether I get the part or not, I made an impression!  So much so that I not only got through the entire song (which is easily 3 minutes or longer), but then the music director asked me to sing the Prologue of the musical in question, which is sung by the character I was auditioning for!  WHAT A THRILL!!!

If nothing else, I have an amazing memory of an amazing time on stage… and that, for me, is enough.  The gratitude I feel for this experience… words fall so short.

So I’ll just shout out a big, “Thank you, THANK you, THANK YOU!!!” to the Universe!!

Thank you, thank you, thank you….

<3 <3 <3

I have a Sad

I have a Sad, and I don’t know why

No I don’t know why, but I want to cry

Want to let it out

Want to scream and shout

As the winter wind goes whistling by

Want to let my teardrops fall like rain

Want to face my fear - want to feel that pain

Want to feel it, raw

As the raven’s caw

Let it drift away as it comes again

Yes I have a Sad, though I’ve not a clue

What has brought it here, or what’s next to do

Do I kick and stomp,

At the bit to chomp?

Or remain as still as the summer dew?

Yet in all of this I recall one thing:

Yes I have a Sad, and a voice to sing

So I’ll sing a song

(You can sing along)

And with that, dear friends, let this Sad take wing

-Journey

I Didn't Know

When I gave you time

That I didn’t have to give

I didn’t know you’d try to steal the clock

When I called you to apologize

For something done years past

I didn’t know you’d do similar

When I reached out in love

To build a bridge from ash

I didn’t know you’d use my words against me

When I spent the last several years

Trying to build a semblance of friendship

I didn’t know how little it meant to you

When I forgave and forgave and forgave

Far beyond the point of insanity

I didn’t know your heart would turn to hate

When I offered you a gift

That I didn’t have to- that broke my heart

I didn’t know you were conspiring to take so much more

I didn’t know you would do the things that you have done

I didn’t know you were the type of person who would - who could

Yet even now, knowing what I know

I would do it all again…

...starting with forgiving you

Because the person that you are - whoever that is

Will never change what I AM.