When Audition and Passion Collide

Today I had an audition.  It’s the first audition I’ve had in years, and wow was I excited!  The musical I was trying out for has been one of my favorites for years, and scoring the part would be HUGELY exciting…

...but I’m not worried about that.  

To be honest, of course I would love to get the part.  I would have so much fun, and to be honest I believe I would do REALLY well.  It’s so much more than that, though….

You see, I love to sing.  It is, without a doubt, one of my greatest passions.  I feel so connected with… more when I sing.  I don’t really know how to describe it, but when I lose myself - truly lose myself - to the music, I just…. Am.  I am the music, and the music is me.  And it is such a beautiful experience.

That’s what I felt today on stage for that audition.  I chose a song that is near and dear to my heart, one I felt was right for that moment, and I just… I got lost in it.  It took a moment at first, I won’t lie (nerves, lol), but when I finally let go and just was…. Oh boy was I!

I was marvelous!  I heard myself, but more than that, I felt myself.  I felt the crescendos, the decrescendos, the suspense of the music as though I was living it.  I felt the audience - a handful of men and women, my husband, and our baby - enjoying what I had worked so hard to prepare for them.  I felt… amazing.

And that is what it’s about for me - following my passions, losing myself in them, and letting go enough to enjoy what I’m doing.  And oh, I did…

And it paid off!!  Whether I get the part or not, I made an impression!  So much so that I not only got through the entire song (which is easily 3 minutes or longer), but then the music director asked me to sing the Prologue of the musical in question, which is sung by the character I was auditioning for!  WHAT A THRILL!!!

If nothing else, I have an amazing memory of an amazing time on stage… and that, for me, is enough.  The gratitude I feel for this experience… words fall so short.

So I’ll just shout out a big, “Thank you, THANK you, THANK YOU!!!” to the Universe!!

Thank you, thank you, thank you….

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