J

So I usually try to avoid talking too much about my boyfriend, J, for a couple of reasons.  First is that I know I can get extremely mushy, and I don't want to gross anybody out! Lol.  Second, I don't want to offend X, should he ever read my blog.  And third, I just don't want to deal w/the bull shit that I know would come from certain people.  But today... today I just can't contain myself.

I am SO IN LOVE w/this man!! I haven't even seen him today, yet I can't stop thinking about him! That's not always the case, but today it definitely is. :-) I woke up thinking about him, I keep accidentally reminding myself of him, and now I simply can't WAIT til tomorrow when I'll get to see him again. :-)

Everything about him makes me happy. :-) Even when I get irritated w/him, he still manages to make me smile, and I love it.  He makes me forget my past, helps me live in the present, and is a constant reminder that - while planning is always good - the future is a mystery and I shouldn't attempt to live in it.

I love all of his little quirks.  Like how he has a habit of looking just over my right shoulder when he talks to me, instead of directly at me, and he doesn't even realize he does it.  Or how I SWEAR he is part dog, since he's got crazy good eyesight, hearing, and sense of smell (not to mention he's the ONLY one the fleas in the yard like to attack! Lol).

I love how he challenges me.  If he doesn't outright challenge me to do/learn something, just his attitude and perspective makes me want to learn more.  :-) And his knowledge of the gospel and of Christ astounds me! I love having spiritual conversations w/him... They are always so meaningful to me. ^.^

I love that he has GOALS in life! Goals that he's reaching for and planning for and doing what is necessary to achieve.  He wants to be an actor, and I think he'll be great at it! But he wants to make sure that, if that career path doesn't work out, he has something to fall back on, so he's getting his ducks all in a row before going to school for acting.  I think the fact that he is making his dream a reality, especially since it's in a logical way, is incredibly sexy.

I love that we don't always agree on everything.  I love that we have little arguments here and there.  I love that we can get a little irritated at each other, but then make up in a timely manner and move on.  I love that we don't let those little arguments turn into huge blowouts, but I also love that we *have* those disagreements, that it isn't completely neutral.

I love the way that he loves me.  He gives me the best of him, and I try to give him the best of me.  He does little things for me, like buy me Magic cards or make me a deck, or take out the trash and do the dishes if I'm busy or otherwise preoccupied.  I love that he rinses off his dishes if I'm feeding K, or feeds K if I clear the table and rinse the dishes.

I love that we DO things! I love that he loves to go for walks w/me, and that we take K and the puppy.  I love that we try to find something fun, some sort of activity, to do when we're bored.  I love when we have down time, but I also LOVE *doing* things w/him!  I ESPECIALLY love when he involves K.  :-)

I love that he's considerate of K's needs.  When planning activities, he keeps in mind her nap times, bed time, and feeding schedule, and I LOVE it.  It lets me know that he's invested in her, too, not just in me. :-)

I love the way he remembers the things I like.  I told him once I love it when he touches the back of my neck when he kisses me, so now he does it quite often and I get a thrill each time!  I told him how I HATE taking out the trash, so now whenever he sees me about to do it he stops me and does it himself. :-)  I told him that I really dislike playing black decks in the game of Magic, so he took back a deck he was going to give me (I felt bad about that, but it was still sweet!)  He knows that I like when he calls me baby at certain times, so he does it.  The list is endless! But he remembers, and I love that.

I love that I can make him laugh.  I LOVE his laugh.  And I love that he can make *me* laugh.  Not just a giggle, but full out laugh to the point I think I'll pass out from lack of oxygen!

I love that he sacrifices things for me.  For example, he was supposed to have a 'me' day yesterday, but instead he drove an hour round trip w/me to pick up a new couch and recliner. :-)  It was incredibly sweet of him.  I try to sacrifice for him, too, but truth be told I think he does more for me.

I love the feeling I get every time I think of him.... it's like my heart is complete.  I can't think of anything I've ever felt - besides the love I have for my daughter - that could ever come close in comparison.

J, if you ever read this, I am so in love with you!!!