Changes

So many changes.

There are so many changes being made in my life right now.  At times, there's so much confusion that I simply don't know what to do with myself.  If I make one decision, I please others but not myself.  If I make another decision, I please myself, but not others.  So it seems that there is only one thing to do:

Please God.

Of course, if I can please God and myself, that's a bonus.  But by pleasing Him I know I can't go wrong, and I will somehow find happiness beyond that which I'd previously felt.  And even if things don't get less confusing, I will somehow be able to find my way through the chaos.

I have so many questions.  As a result of those questions, I have been doing so much research.  A few times I have found myself starting the research process with one goal in mind, only to have my entire purpose turned around.  I have had questions answered in ways I never thought they would be.  Indeed, in ways I hoped they would not be!  Although I can say, thankfully, that my mind has never been clearer, and my heart has never been more at peace.

I have not yet decided when I will make clear the decisions I have made, or the questions that I have found answers to.  For now, though, I will be satisfied to know that I am at peace.