Confessions

So I have something to say (I'd say I have something to admit, but I haven't exactly hidden it.  I just haven't shoved it in people's faces).  It's pretty big news, but not end-of-the-world kind of news.  Actually, I think it's pretty good news: I'm seeing someone.

We will call him J.  He's tall, has brown hair, blue eyes, and crazy eyebrows, haha.  He used to be a Marine (well I guess he still is; he's Reserves) but was never stationed where I live.  In fact, he was stationed in Japan, but moved here after he got out because the missionary group (called the Navigators) that converted him to Christianity asked him to move here to help with the ministry and other such things.  He's handsome and hilarious and I REALLY like him.

We've been dating for about 2 1/2 months.  At first I wasn't so sure about him.  He was so quiet!  And the first date I though he didn't tip the waitress (turns out he did, haha) so his points weren't exactly tallying up, haha.  But the very day I was going to tell him I just wanted to be friends, something changed.  I'm not sure what, exactly, but I no longer wanted to just be friends.  After that, I started falling, fast and hard.

What I love about our relationship is that it's so laid back.  There's no pressure, not from anyone (knowing or unknowing), to stay together.  We talk when we hang out, and we have a lot of the same interests but just enough differences to keep it interesting.  We do things together, like play magic (a card game.  It's awesome, haha) and go for walks and go to walmart just to be weird, haha.  I love it!  He's such an active person, and just social enough that I don't feel trapped in a box with four walls, but still loves his quiet time.

I can tell he really cares about me.  1st of all, he got me a stuffed animal when he went on a trip, just a week or so after meeting me.  It was sweet. :-)  He also keeps in mind things I need to do that I often don't even remember myself, like get my oil changed, or move all the dirt I had piled up from my yard work, or help get rid of my dog's fleas.  And then he does them with me, if I haven't already gotten them done.  On top of that, he remembers things I like, then does them simply because I like them!  For example, one of my FAVORITE ways to be kissed is to have the guy cup my face or put his hand at the back of my neck.  He does them constantly!  And it never gets old. :-)

I honestly haven't felt this way since I fell for S...  Or even K.  But it's heavier, if that makes sense.  It seems more real, more meaningful.  And I hope it is.  I really hope to keep him around.  I honestly don't care what anyone thinks about it (X knows, and has since I met him, so that's all that really matters); I'm happy.  And I plan to stay that way. :-)  We all deserve to find love.  Every single one of us.